Blank. Completely blank. I feel like I want to write. Feel as if this will help relieve some sort of stress I have been building. Not sure where this stress is coming from. I have little to worry about. I figure, maybe I'm just... No. Forget it. Life is short. I want to delete all of these words and go to sleep. I do that to many times in my life. Imagine if there was no backspace, imagine if everything ever written could never be unwritten. To many possibilities, no reason in even trying to imagine it. I never feel like writing about my daily life. It bores me. I have done it once, no reason to relive it. You ever read back the last sentence you wrote and made fun of yourself? I'm tired. I'm done.

I have been thinking.

I want a few things. I want friends.

I want lots of friends, but not just regular old friends, friends that I am comfortable with. Friends that I couldn't imagine talking about me in a fashion that I wouldn't like. I want friends that I can get along with and understand. I want a group.
But.. I do have enough friends to keep me going.

I want a few things really.. I'd like family.

I think I would enjoy being around my family. I have my siblings and parents, but I would like more. I yearn for the day when my siblings and I have children. I want us to be close. I want all of us to be really close. But see, this is where the age gap comes into play, my kids will most probably be a good few years younger then my siblings. Leading to another case similar to mine, feeling sightly left out, age gap wise.

I want simple things really.

I would like to think that I'm a rather interesting guy.. But I have recently came to realize that blandness leaks from my pours.

Although I'm quite sure this is lacking a large percentage of imagination, I would like to break the world record for being the first person in "The Guinness Book of World Records" for being in "The Guinness Book of World Records" for no reason... Well, other than being the first person to be in the "The Guinness Book of World Records" for no good reason.

Just in case you aren't following what I'm saying, this is how it would look -

Howard Bullows - the first person to be in the "The Guinness Book of World Records" for no other reason then to be in the first person in "The Guinness Book of World Records" for no reason.

Wow, I'm not sure if its just me, but it is kind of a hard concept.
 
Any way.. I think the whole idea is flawed from the get-go. I don't think its a world record to be the first person to request to be in "The Guinness Book of World Records" just so I can be the first person in the "The Guinness Book of World Records" for no other reason than being the first person to be in the "The Guinness Book of World Records".

I'm not sure if that would even be considered as a record...

Hmmm..

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

So here we are again! Things have changed a lot since my previous experience with this site! About four years ago this site was the old Myspace (Or should I say Facebook?) in our local group of friends. For some reason, every one dropped it and followed the old wagon straight to the next hotspot! Now thats out of the way, lets move on shall we?

 I came to the conclusion a little while back that us Interweb users have started to become selfish complement whoers!

We no longer bother finding out what our friend Jimmie was doing last weekend when he met his future step sister from Alabama for the first time! We are no longer intrested that she had two extra toes and breath that had the faintest hint of mustard... Or that the whole two days Jimmie spent with her, all he could focus on was linking her facial expressions to those of mooses and roosters.. The more they talked, the more he realized the lack of symatary in her face. This scared little Jimmie. How could this be his future sibling?! What was his father thinking?
I digress...

Us webbers need to hold on a second and realise what we are doing! We went from Xanga to Myspace, and then from Myspace to Facebook! Does any one else realise what this is? Let me restate this..

Xanga is quite a personal place. The main focus is on us! We tell every one what we think, and there is no two ways about it! There is lots of interaction and lots of actual meaning!

Now from there, we go down a notch! Lets go to Myspace! Sure, you can blog if you feel like typing to yourself.. But honestly, after the first month you realize that you don't know half the people on your friends list and all of your picture comments say "Cute! Comment my picture back!", Its another step down from actually interaction! You post bulletins explaining how hard your life is and hope for a quick complement to bring you back on your feet. And lets face it.. On Myspace, every one is searching for complements. Posting attractive pictures of yourself and quoting "I look ugly in this one!".. Your begging for it! But, with people we actually like, we seem to have never ending, daily messages! So we still have some interaction!

Now from here we make the biggest down fall of all... Facebook.. The place that all you can really do is complement one another. If it wasn't for "Greg just got back from work", you wouldn't have the first idea of what your friends were doing... And honestly, who cares anymore? We just want attention! Some one, please send me a bumper sticker! It would show that you and me have a little inside joke that no one else would understand! Comment me and ask whats up, then never comment back! Send me 200 hundred pokes just because you know they are pointless!!! (Now one thing that I do love about face book is Jetman... Damn that game is fun...)


But do you understand?

We went from complete social freaks, down to close friend conversations, down to compairing jetman scores!


I need to go to sleep now...

Todays thought.
How could you make a straight circle..?